As my friends and I were leaving the Chase Center show last Saturday, I commented on how dark and gritty the jams felt that night, and also in Sacramento. My exact words were "I love when Phish gets sinister!" We missed the Sunday show because it was time to drive home to Eugene, but word about the accident got to us very quickly. We speculated if the band would acknowledge the events, and were tearfully thankful that Trey took time to talk about it. Ironically, our seats were in the 200's Row A, with only a very short concrete wall and tiny piece of glass keeping us safe from way up above. My crew didn't even dance, we mostly sat, and contemplated how easy it could be to fall. It was one of my buddies first show and as 2001 started I nudged him and said "just wait!" and then, when the final peak never came, I wondered if that was intentional, like we're not supposed to use this moment to peak. Maybe so, maybe not? But the emotions sure were flying high.... fast forward to last night, EUGN2 - did it feel like Fishman was trying to get the 2001 back, during Ruby Waves? I kept half-expecting to hear the final passage and the peak... but it never came.